You ever get that feeling that you’re doing life wrong? I get that all the time.
I read this great article the other day about how Facebook is making us unhappy. Basically forcing us to confront jealousy everyday we log in and see our friends in awesome places, bragging about awesome jobs, awesome kids and awesome love lives.
You’d think we’d all be awesome being surrounded in awesome all day… but it just makes you hate the word awesome.
I need one of my totem songs right about now…
Tom Petty – “Climb That Hill”
My day is a whirlwind of activity from the moment I wake up… till I can get Maddy to settle into bed. Then its my time… but by the time I turn to look for Coral, she’s asleep. Then I’m by myself, which ain’t all bad… but not a lot happens at night unless i wanna drink. Which I do sometimes…. I often wonder what the point is? Like… what day am I working towards… and what’s scaring me is; there isn’t one. I’m just plugging holes to keep the whole thing from falling down. I want to be an adventurer. If you were to ask me, “what do you wanna be when you grow up?” I’d say explorer.
I watched a video the other month about the sport of indoor rock climbing. It looked pretty cool. Fun, athletic, adventurous… the kind of thing I want to do, but just can’t find the time, energy or budget.
BUT!
There is a gym right, like RIGHT by my place. And god bless ’em, they are open late (and reduced rate late at night). Kismet I tells ya.
Today I fought the urge to watch a movie and eat junk (FOUGHT! I wanted and still do want a slurpee so bad… WTF is that?)… I put my pants back on and drove to the gym and signed up for an introduction lesson. Wish me luck!
Radiohead – “Climbing Up The Walls”
Go with yourself.
The Morning After 